If research is right, I have 8 seconds to captivate you. 1, 2, 3.. I’m already failing, I can feel you loosing interest, but you know what? I don’t care.
This blog, however dull it may be is a reflection of where I am in life right now. I’m a little lost, a little in limbo but trying to dance my way out, trying to be happy and trying to make the most of the little time we get as humans.
I spend my time eating, exercising, watching TV & movies and even more time working to be able to do those things.
My life isn’t interesting, I’m sure no one wants to hear about my day to day activities, how I don’t shower everyday, how I get a heavy period, just mundane things that aren’t filtered to fuck to create an illusion of perfection.
I say this because for a long time that’s what I had envisioned. Trying to build something real, but you can’t build something on foundations that aren’t there.
Instead, I’ve created a negative wormhole to another dimension where instead of being happy, I’m miserable. All I do is complain, I focus all my energy on my anxiousness instead of funnelling it into something useful, something uplifting and positive.
This blog is an outlet for me, which is why it feels like a diary sometimes while I write it. But then it’s sprinkled with things I love like books, and stories. So it’s confusing for me.
And, confusing for you, as a reader, right?
I mean, would I want to read what I write? Isn’t that what they say, you should write what you enjoy reading.